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"This isn't living," I say and you are silent. You don't have to say anything for me to know; you don't like to believe in anything until you know the answer, until you can see every step. There's no answer key to life, but I don't say so. "What's wrong?" I ask and you fumble, say something about your parents, your love life, your friends who hate me. Your lie is bleeding, but this is the only language we know. "It's going to be okay," I say, but this means nothing to people like us, and we are silent again.
It's easier to lie to you because sometimes I hate you, but usually not. The words slide out of my mouth like tobacco leeching from my lungs, and you relish them, tasting every last one. You like it when I lie to you, and sometimes I like to watch you burn. Sometimes I hate you, but usually not.
We are the children in perpetual motion, rising through the night like sparks from a fire. We taste the sky, drinking beneath the harsh light of parking lot eyes because sometimes we hate ourselves, sometimes we want to know what it means to die. Someday, we will regret this, but not tonight. Nights like these, I wonder if someday will ever really come.
You watch as I finger the white pills and wash them down with whiskey. Your mother always told you to just say no, and sometimes you wonder what happened to you, to the person you were. Something inside you breaks as my pupils swell, and I'm glowing, I swear, I am floating on top of the entire world. You don't like to know me when I'm sinking, so this is okay, this is better. Here, we can be two lonely people who fell from the stars. We can be meteors, two lives full of apathy and never, never enough.
You told me once, while we were drunk and the others were sleeping, that I was an enigma, an unstoppable force. Sometimes, I think you don't know me at all, that late at night when I'm selling you my soul, you're telling yourself I'm only what you need me to be, someone to hate so you don't have to hate yourself. You told me once that you didn't understand what brought us together, but in the early morning, bleached light on hung over eyes, I see us for what we are. Time fades everything until we're only the black and white.
I could write you a novel, you know, sewing together the memories until you're everything I wanted you to be. But you are a lost boy, still fishing out of second story windows and sending me home alone. Your eyes follow me past street lights when you think I can't see. You know I may never come back, and sometimes I like to see you scared. I could write you stories of your voice in the dark, fighting the engine to be heard, before I grew up and got too old to listen. But tonight, I hate you and tomorrow may never come, so this is the last time, I promise. None of this ever has to happen again.
It's easier to lie to you because sometimes I hate you, but usually not. The words slide out of my mouth like tobacco leeching from my lungs, and you relish them, tasting every last one. You like it when I lie to you, and sometimes I like to watch you burn. Sometimes I hate you, but usually not.
We are the children in perpetual motion, rising through the night like sparks from a fire. We taste the sky, drinking beneath the harsh light of parking lot eyes because sometimes we hate ourselves, sometimes we want to know what it means to die. Someday, we will regret this, but not tonight. Nights like these, I wonder if someday will ever really come.
You watch as I finger the white pills and wash them down with whiskey. Your mother always told you to just say no, and sometimes you wonder what happened to you, to the person you were. Something inside you breaks as my pupils swell, and I'm glowing, I swear, I am floating on top of the entire world. You don't like to know me when I'm sinking, so this is okay, this is better. Here, we can be two lonely people who fell from the stars. We can be meteors, two lives full of apathy and never, never enough.
You told me once, while we were drunk and the others were sleeping, that I was an enigma, an unstoppable force. Sometimes, I think you don't know me at all, that late at night when I'm selling you my soul, you're telling yourself I'm only what you need me to be, someone to hate so you don't have to hate yourself. You told me once that you didn't understand what brought us together, but in the early morning, bleached light on hung over eyes, I see us for what we are. Time fades everything until we're only the black and white.
I could write you a novel, you know, sewing together the memories until you're everything I wanted you to be. But you are a lost boy, still fishing out of second story windows and sending me home alone. Your eyes follow me past street lights when you think I can't see. You know I may never come back, and sometimes I like to see you scared. I could write you stories of your voice in the dark, fighting the engine to be heard, before I grew up and got too old to listen. But tonight, I hate you and tomorrow may never come, so this is the last time, I promise. None of this ever has to happen again.
Literature
her eyes are facing camrbidge
I cannot find or perhaps
cannot stop finding the points
at which the lines
stop turning.
and on
a fifteen dollar bus
with allergic blue seats
I am nothing but my kneecaps,
brutal and cataclysmic.
I could fit a dozen endings
in between my thighs but I don't
want them, just an oblivion
in beginnings. I am watching
connecticut commit acts of betrayal.
the girl on the bus who I have decided
that I love and who I am writing
this poem for is asleep, her eyes
facing cambridge. someplace off the
highway there are homes that aren't
moving. and a hundred thousand
people who could maybe love me or
people I could maybe love. people
Literature
Dear Out-of-Focus Eyes
Your face is out-of-focus,
stranger,
and maybe you're crying
under the weight of your hair,
maybe you're blushing
beet red under there...
but I'll never know.
I could make up stories about you all night.
I imagine
when you smile,
dimples crease your cheeks
and fireflies appear in your eyes,
but traffic will never stop dead for you.
I imagine you're one-of-a-kind
caught up in a sea of average.
You'll laugh
when fingertips tickle your heels
and your heart
beats just the same as mine
beneath your skin.
You're a writer
or a singer
who hasn't been discovered.
You're a princess
whose bright crown
has yet to be uncovered.
Literature
blue hour eyes
people say
sparks fly when you meet your somebody
but it wasn't like that with you.
there were no sparks when we met,
no birds singing, no cartoon
hearts.
you were reading.
it was a thick book, and old,
and dogeared
and you glanced up at me,
and smiled
and i remember noticing that your
eyes were blue
[not blue like the ocean
or the sky
but blue like mountains that are fading
into the distance
blue like the moment after the sun sets
blue like snow in the twilight]
and when i heard your
voice for the first time,
it felt familiar
and new
and strange, but beautiful
twisting around me
like the music you sometimes hear in
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Hi! This is DictionaryKiller from here to give you a critique!
Firstly, I love the poetic, angsty nature of your peice. Your words have a deepness to it that kept me through it. It's so useful in this type of work full of twisted relationships, depression and substance abuse. Perfect.
I don't know why, but I feel that this was a tad bit overdone. "It's easier to lie because sometiimes I hate you, but usually not." This line just didn't sit right with me. The idea is good but I'd better like it if you restructured that sentence, or better yet, omitted "but usually not". It would make the entire paragraph more close-knit.
Other reason I felt your poetic style was stretched too far was the fact that there was too little action in this. The small edition of decripition that happened outside the narrators thoughts bothered me. "'This isn't living,' I say and you are silent." There was only those few shreds of dialg the beginning, and then it was all thinking for the main character. I stopped being in the present.
Two ways to solve this: Add more dialogue, or remove it altogether. For you, I suggest the latter. Keep that pondering theme. Rework the first paragraph so that there is no conversation going on, and remove all actions. After all that, this'll be spot-on brilliant.
Happy Writing!
Firstly, I love the poetic, angsty nature of your peice. Your words have a deepness to it that kept me through it. It's so useful in this type of work full of twisted relationships, depression and substance abuse. Perfect.
I don't know why, but I feel that this was a tad bit overdone. "It's easier to lie because sometiimes I hate you, but usually not." This line just didn't sit right with me. The idea is good but I'd better like it if you restructured that sentence, or better yet, omitted "but usually not". It would make the entire paragraph more close-knit.
Other reason I felt your poetic style was stretched too far was the fact that there was too little action in this. The small edition of decripition that happened outside the narrators thoughts bothered me. "'This isn't living,' I say and you are silent." There was only those few shreds of dialg the beginning, and then it was all thinking for the main character. I stopped being in the present.
Two ways to solve this: Add more dialogue, or remove it altogether. For you, I suggest the latter. Keep that pondering theme. Rework the first paragraph so that there is no conversation going on, and remove all actions. After all that, this'll be spot-on brilliant.
Happy Writing!